On my mind...

So this week, I've had a lot of time to just think about things. I've had a really interesting week and some really good moments. Of course, it wasn't all good, but we shouldn't dwell on all the bad things in our lives. I've really started to accept the death of Jeremy. After I talked to his grandfather at the viewing, I've been able to accept the decision Jeremy had made. So, things are getting better, but I know life gets hard and I'm so grateful for people who have been there for me through all of this. I have great friends, who have let me cry on their shoulders, comforted me, talked with me, said uplifting words, and given me many hugs in times of need. Thank you to all of you that have talked to me this past week, or have helped me in some way. I know I can always count on you. I hope you all know, I'll be there for you all when you need a shoulder to cry on. So, here are some quotes, they all have to do with things that have been running through my mind throughout this whole week. Thank you everyone!


"You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel." -Unknown






"You say you love the rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when it shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when it blows. So don't ask me why I am afraid when you say that you love me too." -William Shakespeare


"When you touch someone with your spirit, in turn they touch your soul with their heart." -Unknown


"The best way to live life is to hang on to today like there's no tomorrow." Susan Gale


"And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." -Unknown


"When God solves your problems, you have faith in His abilities. But when He doesn't solve your problems, He has faith in your abilities." -Unknown


"Life is too short for people to be untrue." -Unknown


"Your struggles were never meant to break you down, but to make you stronger." -Unknown


"Have the courage to live. Anyone can die." -Robert Cody


"Use your smile to change this crazy world. Don't let this crazy world change your smile." -Unknown


"Forgive me if I smile, it's just to hide my fears. Forgive me if I laugh, it's just to hide the tears." -Unknown


"You better live everyday like it's your last day, 'cause one day you're gonna be right." -Ray Charles


"Let's be honest. Life sucks. You may not know what to do at times, who to trust, what you like, people will change, and people will leave you. But like everything else, good comes with the bad. You'll be able to make decisions, you will always be able to trust somebody, you'll like different things, you may change, and learn to live with the memories people have left with you. Life may get rough, but it will always get better." -Alissa Lopez

"A thousand words won't bring you back. I know because I've tried, neither will a million tears. I know because I've cried." -Unknown 


"Experience is a hard teacher because she gives the test first, the lesson afterwards." -Vernon Saunders Law

Learning from your experiences...

Wow, this week has been crazy. I can officially say, probably the worst week yet that I can remember. Lots of tears flooded my eyes these past few days. Thursday though, I felt numb...like I was just running through the motions, not really thinking of what I was doing. Just doing them. I have never felt that way before, never felt the way I've felt this week. I've learned a lot this week. A lot about myself, my friends, and life. I've realized that from these experiences I've had this week, have really changed how I look at other people and I look at myself. Hopefully, tonight will be better, seeing that I'm going to preference tonight. I still have a ton of things to do. I completely forgot the boutonniere! So, we'll see how the day goes. Thankfully, I have the weekend to start thinking clearly again. I been really distracted this week thinking about things. Anyways, time for the quotes.


"I've realized you are never truly prepared for anything. Even if you think you are, you're not. Life always throws something at you that you weren't expecting." -Alissa Lopez


"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So, take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all live in the moment, because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back." -Unknown


"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the one that has opened for us." Alexander Graham Bell


"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile." -Unknown


"You can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel." -Unknown


"You've got to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you've got, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never regret." -Unknown


"Feelings change. Memories don't." -Joel Alexander


"I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past of try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be." -Lisa Brooks

R.I.P Jeremy

Hey guys. Today has been a really rough day and I really wanted to share this. A very loved, young man has moved on this morning. We will all miss his sweet spirit. The way he made everybody feel better and was a real friend for everyone. I want to share a poem that I wrote, and I am dedicating it to him. We will miss you Jeremy. I hope you realize how loved you are. You will always be in our hearts. Please keep his family in your prayers everyone. Nobody can forget the impact Jeremy had on our lives, those who knew him...and even those who didn't. He was such an amazing guy! We will miss you!

Your Legacy

By:Alissa Lopez

Tears are flowing

We're just standing in the silence

Nobody says a word

We hug

We cry

We listen

No words, just feelings.

We all can feel it

The pain, the hurt, the sadness

Wishing we could have one more day,

One more day to tell you

We cared and loved you...

And we always will, Jeremy

Your gone

And now we are given the opportunity,

The chance of a lifetime,

To carry you in our hearts.

To keep your legacy going,

Keep your happy spirit alive...

Forever and always!

Gotta love the dentist...

So today I was as some might say, given the opportunity to go to the dentist. I know this totally going to be a strange post, but just bare with me. So, I have a great dentist. He's amazing! Haha hopefully he doesn't see this, but he is so cute too. :) Anyways, now half my face is numb and I can't really talk or laugh...or even smile! It's so depressing, and I look so bad!!! Hopefully the numbing will go away soon, but in the meantime, let's get some quotes going!!! And yes...they will be dentist quotes. Haha.

"Happiness is a dentist telling you it won't hurt and then having him catch his hand on the drill." -Johnny Carson

"I was never afraid of anything in the world except the dentist." -Taylor Caldwell

"You don't have to brush your teeth - just the ones you want to keep." -Author Unknown

"I find that most men would rather have their bellies opened for five hundred dollars than have a tooth pulled for five." -Martin H. Fischer

"Although I'm in pain now, I'm glad I went to the dentist." -Alissa Lopez

"Trips to the dentist - I like to postpone that kind of thing." -Johnny Depp

Love is in the air!!!

Ok, so it's not really in the air, it just seemed like a good title...well actually change that...maybe love IS in the air. Haha, this is kind of random, but not really because it has to do with love. Anyways, I had this dream the other day about this person who is in one of my classes...actually this person sits right next to me in this class. Well, in my dream...we apparently were together and at this one part we kissed...in the rain. Cute, I know...but this kind of made it awkward during my class, especially since him and I aren't like super tight. Well it just happened to be the day he chooses to keep striking up a conversation with me...AWKWARD! Like, he didn't know about the dream...and I didn't want him knowing, so I just had to try to act normal even though this was not a normal class period! Haha...yeah, that's my little story of the day. Don't go thinking I'm some strange girl who dreams about kissing guys in the rain...because this was the first time that has ever happened. Anyways...I should just get to the quotes already. Hope ya like them!!!

"To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage." -Lao Tzu

"That feeling when he looks at me with his big gorgeous eyes. That feeling I get when he smiles at me. That feeling I get when he lightly brushes my hair out of my face. That feeling when he laughs at my stupid jokes. That feeling when he tells me how amazing I am. That feeling when he wraps his arms around my and just lets me cry while he tells me everything will be ok. That feeling when he starts tickling me even when I tell him to stop and he knows I really don't want him to. That feeling when he tell me I look beautiful. That feeling I get when he tells me he loves me. That's all I really need in life. Who wouldn't want that feeling?" -Alissa Lopez

"Love is not what the mind thinks, but what the heart feels." -Greg Evans

"Give her two red roses, each with a note. The first note says, 'For the women I love' and the second, 'For my best friend.'" -Unknown

"What most people need to learn in life is how to love people and use things instead of using people and loving things." -Unknown

"I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you....how good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh. I day-dream about you off and on, replaying pieces of our conversation; laughing at funny things that you said or did. I've memorized your face and the way that you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine. I wonder what will happen the next time we are together and even though nothing will come out of this, I know one thing for sure...I don't care, I cherish every moment I have with you." -Unknown

"When I say I love you, please believe it's true. When I say forever, know I'll never leave you. When I say goodbye, promise me you won't cry. Cause the day I'll be saying that would be the day I die." -Unknown

"Love and magic have a great deal in common. They enrich the soul, delight the heart. And they both take practice." -Nora Roberts

"Within you I lose myself.Without you I find myself wanting to become lost again." -Unknown

Happy New Year's Eve!!!

Hey guys! I can't believe this year is almost through! It's insane. Looking back at this year...I find it somewhat successful. I had a great time...and I learned a lot about who I am and about my friends. I will say, it was a really tough year, but there was so much fun through it all. As a quick overview, I met a great new friend who is absolutely AMAZING!, I was in  "Once Upon A Mattress," I had my grandparents come out (but they do every year), a friend and I made up after like a year of not being friends (and that was actually partially in 2010, not 2011), my mom got remarried, I was in "Children of Eden," I met another great person!, and I had my birthday (but that's annually...so whatever), and I had a lot of late nights with some friends, I started my blog, I stuck through a friendship that was going south for a while, I learned some very important things about myself, and I am starting to recover from some things! It's really been interesting, and it's defiantly been an adventure. I can't wait to see what 2012 is like! Hopefully, a year to remember. :) Here are some quotes for all of you. Happy New Year's Eve! And I hope you enjoyed this year, if not...clean slate for next year!

"I wish you have 12 months of happiness, 52 weeks of fun, 365 days of success, 8760 hours of good health, 52600 minutes of good luck, 3153600 seconds of joy. Happy New Year!" -Unknown


"We spend January 1 walking through our lives, room by room, drawing up a list of work to be done, cracks to be patched. Maybe this year, to balance the list, we ought through the rooms of our lives, not looking for flaws, but for potential." -Ellen Goodman


"We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and our first chapter is New Year's Day." -Edith Lovejoy Pierce

"Year's end is neither and end or a beginning but a going on, with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us." -Hal Borland


"Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right." -Oprah Winfrey


"It is difficult to live in the present, ridiculous to live in the future, and impossible to live in the past. Nothing is as far away as one minute ago." Jim Bishop


"One resolution I have made, and try always to keep, is this - To rise above all the little things." -John Burroughs


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year." -Ralph Waldo Emerson


"The bad news is time flies. The good news is you're the pilot." -Michael Altshuler


"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow." -Einstein


"New Year's Day is every man's birthday." -Charles Lamb

Friends, Friends, and more Friends :)

Hey guys! I thought of doing another post about friends. With one of my friends birthdays coming up, I thought I'd give this to her as part of her gift. (Don't worry I got her something else...but I'm not going to say it, for if she reads this.) Anyways, she's a great friend and I thought this would be nice. So happy early birthday Aysha! Hope you like this! :)

"If you can think of no other reason why you should be someone's friend, consider the possibility that they may just need one." -Linda Poindexter

"Good friends are those who let you be yourself, but still correct your mistakes and help you to be a better you." -Wilson Kanadi

"Sometimes we say we hate each other, or we get in stupid fights, but in the end I know you and I will always be friends." -Alissa Lopez

"Friendship is not a big thing, it's a million of little things." -Anonymous

"A friend can tell you things you don't want to tell yourself." -Frances Ward Weller

"A good friend is cheaper than therapy." -Anonymous

"Friends are kisses blown to us by angels." -Anonymous

"What is a friend? A friend is someone who you think your life would be different if they didn't exist. A friend is someone who never leaves you out, you are always included when you are with them. A friend is there for you no matter what." -Unknown

"Friendship is a single soul living in two bodies." -Aristotle

"Friendship is only cement that will ever hold the world together." -Woodrow Wilson

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Hey guys! It's Christmas! I can't believe it! I hope you all feel love and joy this Christmas season. Remember the true meaning of Christmas; it's not always about the gifts. This is my favorite time of the year! Have a great day everybody! And, the tree...that's my Christmas tree! Love it! Merry Christmas, y'all!

"Christmas gift suggestions: to your enemy, forgiveness. To an opponent, tolerance. To a friend, your heart. To a customer, service. To all, charity. To every child, a good example. To yourself, respect." -Oren Arnold

"Christmas is not a time or a season but a state of mind. To cherish peace and good will, to be plenteous in mercy, is to have the real spirit of Christmas." -Calvin Coolidge


"Christmas is love in action. Every time we love, every time we give, it's Christmas." -Dale Evans

"It is not the gift, but the thought that counts." -Henry Van Dyke

"The best of all gifts around any Christmas tree: the presence of a happy family all wrapped up in each other." -Burton Hillis

"From home to home, and heart to heart, from one place to another. The warmth and joy of Christmas, brings us closer to each other." -Emily Matthews

"Christmas is doing a little something extra for someone." -Charles Schulz