Tears, fears and yester years

It's funny how life turns out. Life can be so amazing, but it can also really suck. Lately I've had a lot of things going on in life that have made my life great, and people have made me feel great, but there has been quite a few tears this past month. I've been having the time of my life this week though. So, it's getting better. It's just a little hard, and I feel so helpless. Thankfully I have amazing friends who have been there for me every day this month. I have no idea how I would function if it wasn't for my friends. They have helped me through the tears, my fears, and throughout the years. They all mean so much to me. I may cry, and things may go wrong but they will help me face my fears and make me feel better. So here are some quotes that I like, they don't necessarily have to do with friends, but they have to do with everything in my life at this moment. I really hope you don't mind if I repeat some. Haha, but I hope you find some you like. :)

"Real friends are always going to be there by your side, even at times when you tell them to leave." -Unknown

"Forgive me if I smile, it's just to hide my fears. Forgive me if I laugh, it's just to hide the tears." -Unknown

"Sometimes we say we hate each other, or we get in stupid fights, but in the end I know you and I will always be friends." -Alissa Lopez

"I think we spend too much time wondering why we're not good enough. We waste too much time putting ourselves down that we don't ever stop to see that we are good enough. We spend too much time with our heads down and hearts closed and never get a chance to look up from the ground and see the sun is shining and tomorrow is another day." -Unknown

"Everything in life is temporary. So, if things are going good, enjoy it because it won't last forever. And if things are going bad, don't worry, it can't last forever either." -Unknown

"Happiness always looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and you learn at once how big and precious it is." -Maxim Gorky

"Sometimes when I say 'I'm okay,' I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight and say, 'I know you are not.'" -Unknown

"Some people think that to be strong is to never feel pain. In reality, the strongest people are the ones who feel it, understand it, and accept it." -Unknown

"I tried to be your friend when no one else would, but you abandoned me when I needed a friend. I kept all your secrets, but you gave mine away. I loved you with unconditional love, but your love was conditional. I tried to believe you, but you told too many lies. I wanted to trust you, but you proved I couldn't. I thought we could be friends, but you said 'no.' I tried to stay in your life, but you pushed me away." -Jacey Danielle

"Live the life you love. Love the life you live." -Bob Marley

"You were given this life because you are strong enough to live it." -Unknown

"Sometimes all you can do is cry, and that's okay. Just know that when you cry, I'll be there to comfort you." -Alissa Lopez

"Sometimes we must hurt in order to grow. We must fail in order to know that sometimes our visions are clear only after our eyes are washed away with tears." -Unknown

"I say stupid things at times, I fall up the stairs, my best friends are my bet and my pillow, I'm way too obsessed with quotes, I cry too often, I laugh at others pain no matter how much it hurts them. I hate but love being the middle child, I wear heels whenever I can get away with it. In fact I practically only own heels. I make mistakes. I'm in love with my best friend. I act, I sing, I dance. I'm not perfect, but this is me. This is who I am." -Alissa Lopez

"You never get used to the idea of someone being gone. Just when you think it's reconciled, accepted, someone points it out to you, and it just hits you all over again." -Unknown

Oh life....haha

Hey, sorry it's been so long. I've been super busy. There's been a lot of things going on lately and I've just been having a hard time lately, but at the same time I feel like life couldn't be any better. There are those moments that make you realize why life is so precious. There are the people who make you realize life is worth it, and I'm worth it. Then there are those who tear us down and will do anything to make us feel worthless and upset. Lately I've been going through being torn to pieces more than being put back together and it's been a little difficult. So, here are just some random quotes that go along with my life at the moment. Some of these I may have posted before, but they go on with my life, so I'll post them again. :) A lot of them have to do with friends. So I hope that's okay. Anyways, hope you find some you like.

"Friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest...it's about who came, and never left your side." -Unknown

"Real friends are always going to be there by your side, even at times when you tell them to leave." -Unknown

"A good friend will laugh at the things you're saying. A best friend will laugh at the things you're thinking." -Susan Gale

"Sometimes when I say, 'I'm okay,' I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight and say, 'I know you are not.'" -Unknown

"A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow." -William Shakespeare

"When you smiled, you had my undivided attention. When you laughed, you had my urge to laugh with you. When you cried, you had my urge to hold you. When you said you loved me, you had my heart forever." -Unknown

"It's not that I don't care, I just don't want to deal with all this crap. I have other things to worry about and one of them is my reality." -Alissa Lopez

"It's sad when people you know become people you knew. When you walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and how now, you can barely even look at them" -Henry Rollins

"Trust is like a paper, once crumpled it can't be perfect again." -Unknown

"Sometimes you don't realize your own strength until you come face to face with your greatest weaknesses." -Susan Gale

"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself." -Unknown

"Happiness is something that comes into our lives through doors we don't even remember leaving open." -Rose Wilder Lane

"I don't want a perfect person. I just want someone to act silly with, someone who treats me well and loves being with me more than anything." -Anonymous

"Life is too short to stress yourself with people who don't even deserve to be an issue in your life." -Anonymous

"There are two kinds of people. The ones who will do anything to tear you apart, and the ones who work so hard to put the pieces back together." -Alissa Lopez

"No one got blind by looking on the bright side." -Unknown

"Sometimes quiet people really do have a lot to say...they're just being careful about who they open up to." -Susan Gale

The downside...and upside of life

Yes, life is AMAZING. But lately, I don't know...it hasn't been as good as people make it seem. I mean I've had some really good moments this past week, but you know, to tell you the truth...a lot of it has been horrible. Just downright pitiful and I've hated this whole week. I will say, I was glad of some things that happened, but for the most part, I hated it. I don't mean to sound all depressed or anything, I just thought that since I haven't really done a "downer" post, I may as well do one and get it over with...especially since I've been feeling like crap the whole week. Sometimes you need the bad quotes to make you feel better and remember the good things you have. Like after I read through some of these I was reminded about how my old director asked me this week to be his assistant director for his new play. That's one of the biggest things that happened to me, and was probably the best. So, I hope these also remind you of the good things in your life. Yes, life sucks...but it sucks just so we can look for the good things, which takes lots of talent. Believe me! So here I have some quotes about hating life and pretty much sucking, and then some more uplifting quotes about life being what you make it. Hope you like at least one of these quotes! :)


"Some of us are just trying to get through the day without falling apart." -Unknown


"Behind the smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh I'm falling apart. Look closely and you will see, the girl I seem --isn't me." -(I'm not sure who said this originally, but I heard somebody say this once)


"I have had just about all I can take of myself." -S.N. Berhman


"More and more, it feels like I'm doing a really bad impersonation of myself." -Chuck Palahniuk


"Ask me how I am, I'm going to tell you I'm fine. Ask me what's wrong and I may start to break down. Something happens when you ask these two questions. The first one, I can take and pretend like I'm okay. But when you already know something is wrong, I can't help but start to relive the moment, and break down all over again. There's no way I can hide that, no matter how hard I try and I'm forced to tell you what's really going on." -Alissa Lopez


"Holding on is tough, much tougher than letting go or simply quitting." -Unknown


"I hate tears. I hate fighting. I hate life at its most right now." -Unknown (haha this one I don't like as much but decided to put on nonetheless.)


"Sometimes I hate life so much, but I try to still smile as much as I can." -Unknown


"I have found that if you love life, life will love you back." -Arthur Rubinstein


"Open your eyes, look within. Are you satisfied with the life you're livin'? -Bob Marley


"You have to take risks. We only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen." -Paulo Coelho


"Life is interesting...in the end, some of your greatest pains, become your greatest strengths." -Drew Barrymore


"The difference between life and the movies is that a script has to make sense, but life doesn't." -Joseph Mankiewicz


"Life isn't about how to survive the storm, but how to dance in rain." -Unknown


"You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching, love like you'll never be hurt, sing like there's nobody listening, and live like it's heaven on earth." -William W. Purkey


"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself." -Unknown

Chocolates, flowers, hugs, and kisses...

It's almost time for Valentine's Day! Like I keep saying, I'm really excited for it! I still have nothing that I know of to be excited for, but that's okay. It doesn't have to be about that special someone, you can have a great time just with your friends and family. Even though I'm really excited for Valentine's Day, I'm done with the month of February. It feels like it should be almost over, yet it's hardly in the middle of the month and I'm just bored with it being February. I really want March to come along. Oh, I'm doing pretty well with my braid challenge, I've been able to keep up with that. Even if some days I just want to pull it back in a normal ponytail or just leave it down cuz I'm too lazy. It's been a challenge looking for new braids to do, but it's been kind of fun. Well that's enough of my little life...so here are some quotes. :)

"Why does cupid never grow? Because it symbolizes that love never gets old. Why does he throw arrows to our hearts? To remind us that love hurts." -Unknown


"Sometimes we think girls are the only ones hurt from falling, but don't realize there are lots of guys hurt from catching those girls who fall but then they end up falling for somebody else later on." -Alissa Lopez


"It takes three seconds to say 'I love you,' but a life time to mean it." -Justine Jones


"Because of you I have found a whole new meaning of the world." -Unknown


"Once in a while , right in the middle of an ordinary life, Love gives us a fairy tale." -Anonymous


"Loving someone is like caring for a garden, love it too much or too little and it dies, but love it just right and it will live forever." -Unknown


"I didn't look for love, I just fell in it." -Larry Jones


"I get lost sometimes when you act like a fool...you give me butterflies deep inside, you give me butterflies." -Butterflys; Alana Lee


"Love is a hard word to say....if you don't mean it, don't say it." -Crystal Velez


"That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that this person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that it will go away all at the same time." -Josie Geller; Never Been Kissed


"Love is good, love sometimes hurts; but if it's the right person for you, it'll work." -Carlos Diaz Lopez


"Love can always be replaced with someone new, but true love can't." -Tara Justice


"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." -Karl (age 5)


"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." -Noelle (age 7)


"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." -Karen (age 7)

XOXOXOXO

It's getting closer to Valentine's Day. Which normally, I don't care too much about. But I decided not to be a downer on it this year and I'm super excited. I have nobody who has told me they liked me and stuff, so I don't really have that "special someone," but I'm really excited...as I said in my last post. I know a lot of people who don't really like Valentine's Day, and maybe you are one of those people, but oh well...love quotes are the best, and they are always amazing. So, let's get on to these quotes already!!! Oh, and thank you to those who gave me some quotes for this. :)

"The best part of me is you." -Samantha Stout


"Girls, just because you aren't his kind of beautiful doesn't mean you aren't the definition of someone else's. You are amazing! You are strong! You are good enough! I promise you there is someone out there for you. Do not let one boy ruin your self esteem. It's not that you aren't good enough for him. Truth is, he will never be good enough for you." -Unknown


"No boy is worth crying over. And the one who is, won't make you cry." -Sarah Kane


"Girl: 'What's the first thing that you notice when you look at another girl?' Boy: 'That she's not you.'" -Unknown


"Everyday, I fight back the urge to text you or call you, telling myself that if you wanted to talk to me, you would." -Unknown


"Holding her hand in public is just another way of saying you're proud to have her." -Unknown


"Loving you is so sweet, loving you like constantly feeling that warm feeling inside...that warm bubbly sensation. Loving you is the best part of me." -Samantha Stout


"If a hug represented how much I loved you, I would hold you in my arms forever." -Mandy Hampton


"Because you're the kind of guy who'd laugh at me when I fall, but help me up and whisper, 'It's okay, I still love you.'" -Unknown


"You know it's love when you want to keep holding hands, even after you're sweaty." Anonymous


"You know you're in love when you start listening to love songs, read romance books, watch romance movies, and start looking for love quotes." -Alissa Lopez


"Ladies, place your heart in the hands of God and He will place it in the hands of a man He believes deserves it." -Unknown


"Love is not selfish or unkind. Nor is it boastful or disloyal. Love is simply a deep feeling found within the heart that money cannot buy." -April Haney


"It's been said that you only truly fall in love once, but I don't believe it. Every time I see you, I fall in love all over again." -Anon


"To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven." -Karen Sunde

Don't you just love...LOVE?!

It's the month to get all lovey dovey. Haha. I must say, these past two days have been....well I'm not sure how to describe them. But they've been really fun and AMAZING, let's just say that. Let's hope the rest of the month is like this. Knock on wood....ha I really did knock on wood. Oh, this month, I'm doing a challenge of a different braid every day of February. So far, of course it's been good, cuz it's only been 2 days. I'm actually really excited for this month. And I'm kind of excited for Valentine's Day, even though I don't have a Valentine or a special someone. Maybe I will later... ;) but for now...I don't. Anyways, yea I'm excited. I'm not really sure why, but this year I just feel like being excited. So, here are some little love quotes for this week. I love, love quotes, as many of you know, and would die if any guy said one to me, or wrote one to me in a note or anything with one, haha. These ones are so cute, so I hope you like them!!!

"I love you. I always have and always will , from the very start, when I met you I fell in love with your smile, your eyes, just you. I love you." -Unknown


"A real man doesn't love a million of girls, he loves one girl in a million ways." -Unknown


"You don't marry someone you can live with - you marry the person who you cannot live without." -Unknown


"When I look into your eyes, it's like falling in love all over again." -Amanda Arco


"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies." -Aristotle


"So many ways to say, 'I love you,' never enough to say how much." -Cameron Rand


"If you want me to fall for you, you got to give me something worth tripping over." -Unknown


"I wanna be the girl he gives his hoodie to wear and cuddles up next to when it's cold, he'll be the one who comes up behind me, wraps his arms around my waist, catches me off guard and whispers, 'you look beautiful.'" -Unknown


"I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone." -Javen


"Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same." -Emily Bronte


"I don't mind when our conversations get a little boring. I don't mind when we're texting and we run out of things to say. When we're hanging out together but not doing anything, well I don't mind that either. It doesn't matter to me because I've realized, that when you're truly in love, every moment spent together doesn't have to be breath-taking, that you'll still feel like the luckiest person alive even through the most unexciting times, and you will feel completely comfortable together because you know that just having each other is more than enough. And there comes a moment when you find out that it's not important what you're talking about or where you're going or what you're doing. The only thing that matters is that you are with each other. And that's enough to feel happy." -GirlPimp (I found this on http://www.boardofwisdom.com/default.asp great website just so ya know)



"Last night I matched each star with a reason for loving you. I was doing great until I ran out of stars." -Unknown


"Find that guy that will pick up every piece of your shattered heart and put it back together; keeping one piece for himself, replacing it with a piece of his." -Unknown

On my mind...

So this week, I've had a lot of time to just think about things. I've had a really interesting week and some really good moments. Of course, it wasn't all good, but we shouldn't dwell on all the bad things in our lives. I've really started to accept the death of Jeremy. After I talked to his grandfather at the viewing, I've been able to accept the decision Jeremy had made. So, things are getting better, but I know life gets hard and I'm so grateful for people who have been there for me through all of this. I have great friends, who have let me cry on their shoulders, comforted me, talked with me, said uplifting words, and given me many hugs in times of need. Thank you to all of you that have talked to me this past week, or have helped me in some way. I know I can always count on you. I hope you all know, I'll be there for you all when you need a shoulder to cry on. So, here are some quotes, they all have to do with things that have been running through my mind throughout this whole week. Thank you everyone!


"You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel." -Unknown






"You say you love the rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when it shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when it blows. So don't ask me why I am afraid when you say that you love me too." -William Shakespeare


"When you touch someone with your spirit, in turn they touch your soul with their heart." -Unknown


"The best way to live life is to hang on to today like there's no tomorrow." Susan Gale


"And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." -Unknown


"When God solves your problems, you have faith in His abilities. But when He doesn't solve your problems, He has faith in your abilities." -Unknown


"Life is too short for people to be untrue." -Unknown


"Your struggles were never meant to break you down, but to make you stronger." -Unknown


"Have the courage to live. Anyone can die." -Robert Cody


"Use your smile to change this crazy world. Don't let this crazy world change your smile." -Unknown


"Forgive me if I smile, it's just to hide my fears. Forgive me if I laugh, it's just to hide the tears." -Unknown


"You better live everyday like it's your last day, 'cause one day you're gonna be right." -Ray Charles


"Let's be honest. Life sucks. You may not know what to do at times, who to trust, what you like, people will change, and people will leave you. But like everything else, good comes with the bad. You'll be able to make decisions, you will always be able to trust somebody, you'll like different things, you may change, and learn to live with the memories people have left with you. Life may get rough, but it will always get better." -Alissa Lopez

"A thousand words won't bring you back. I know because I've tried, neither will a million tears. I know because I've cried." -Unknown 


"Experience is a hard teacher because she gives the test first, the lesson afterwards." -Vernon Saunders Law

Learning from your experiences...

Wow, this week has been crazy. I can officially say, probably the worst week yet that I can remember. Lots of tears flooded my eyes these past few days. Thursday though, I felt numb...like I was just running through the motions, not really thinking of what I was doing. Just doing them. I have never felt that way before, never felt the way I've felt this week. I've learned a lot this week. A lot about myself, my friends, and life. I've realized that from these experiences I've had this week, have really changed how I look at other people and I look at myself. Hopefully, tonight will be better, seeing that I'm going to preference tonight. I still have a ton of things to do. I completely forgot the boutonniere! So, we'll see how the day goes. Thankfully, I have the weekend to start thinking clearly again. I been really distracted this week thinking about things. Anyways, time for the quotes.


"I've realized you are never truly prepared for anything. Even if you think you are, you're not. Life always throws something at you that you weren't expecting." -Alissa Lopez


"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So, take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all live in the moment, because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back." -Unknown


"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the one that has opened for us." Alexander Graham Bell


"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile." -Unknown


"You can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel." -Unknown


"You've got to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you've got, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never regret." -Unknown


"Feelings change. Memories don't." -Joel Alexander


"I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past of try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be." -Lisa Brooks